Penat

Adohai penatnya!! ni baru balik keje , mandi then terus on lappy..life is all about blog now.Dont ask me about him cause am not interested of talking bout him anymore.Cecukuplah.Its all about me now.

Kekadang bila kita terlalu sayang terlalu baik dengan orang the return back wont always be in good way.Its not easy.Makan hati,sakit hati...macam macam lagilah.

Jangan terlalu baik sangka dengan semua orang have to be careful.Human will always be human.Tak mungkin manusia jadi terlalu baik sebab biasanya manusia hanya akan jadik baik when they need something.Tanyalah semua orang,confirm if they good wth this person pasti ada benda yang dia nak.Hey life is not free k..

As for me am calmer this way.He want it that way i give him they way lah..takkan aku nak pujuk rayu bagai.huh buang masa! Marah? yupe marah benci sakit hati masih berbekas lagi.Sejak dulu lagi i can forgive but wont forget..ko gila nak lupa bila diri ni kena hina kena maki kena hamun..emmm am not an angel..oppsss dari segi keje yupe am an Angel..hahahha..

So all day at work i keep on doing my own work rasa sedih marah menyampah tu mmg hilang.yeah am more happy when am in the office than at home.Erkk..boss ada mau bagi bilik kosong ke kat opis? hahahah...mau sewa bole? Tapi each time kaki ni langkah masuk rasa panas,benci,sakit hati..semua ada.

kalau ikut rasa hati ni nak lari jauh jauh tapi ikatan tu buat saya masih fikir waras..bercakap dengan dia..emm sesudahlah tak kuasa dah rasanya.Ikut sahaja cara dia.Nak pandang muka dia? emm saya dah tiada hati dah..my heart broken to pieces bila saya dengar semua dari mulut dia..emm..thts makes me think that tho a man is your husband do not believe that he actually be your shoulder to cry on but he is actually stabbing you slowly without even you notice it.Percaya kan orang..emmm mungkin bukan sayalah orangnya selepas ini.

I did delete all the memories that i have with him in my previous blog..mmg susah but need to do so..sbb the good ones dah mati dah dalam hati ni.Lara hati ni biarlah saya simpan buat diri saya sendiri.

Ada yang cakap when a marriage nak masuk 5 years pasti ada godaan...ini bukan godaan tapi dendam.Biarlah...saya redha dengan keadaan saya.am hoping the best in my own life.

Insyallah i hope my application untuk berpindah ke Kedah will be granted ASAP.Thanks to my previous yang faham my situation now.I need to be away from him and his family.

Kalau masih ada kasih atau sayang hatta sikit pun dalam hati dia tahulah dia macamana nak cari a person whom he called ISTERI.Kalau tidak saya berserah pada takdir..biarlah DIA yang tentukan.Andai kata putus dipertengahan jalan saya redha..andai tidak he need to face that am not the same person he used to know.