Tak tahu nak tulis apa kat tittle atas.Siapa yang pernah baca my previous blog surely akan rindu that blog since ths blog lebih banyak cerita sedih dari happy.
Tonite Kak N ada tanya "Apa status sabrina sekarang?"..
Nak bergenang airmata sebab i have no answer for that.I know that i will miss Kak N the most if jadi apa apa.
I did asked Adik masa dia cuti the other day
"Adik rasa kak N boleh terima kenyataan tak kalau jadi apa apa?" and yupe she says NO.and dia sambung dia takkan nak kat orang lain dah lepas ni...masa tu i feel like hugging her and say that i how deeply i love both of them.
I did also mintak maaf sesiap if that nite would be the last time i celebrate Kak N's birthday dengan dia..and i asked her
"Lepas ni suruhlah sesiapa do something untuk birthday semua yer"and adik diam n gelengkan kepala dia...
"Kalau jadi apa apa kitaorg tak nak celebrate dah"..emmm...runtun jiwa ni.I know i did so many mistakes ..i did scold them,bisingkan diaorg,and theres certain times the jealousy tu membuak..but i still do and i will always love them no matter what.Setiap detik setiap masa and setiap celebration i remember them..i still remember what food what drinks they love or dont, what type of clothes yang they do and dont love it..semua tu i did cause i love them..
Semua tuduhan tu perit sesangat untuk telan.I really want him to be in my shoes and feel the feeling that i feel.Even he himself doesnt know what kind of food yang diaorang makan,what type of clothes that they love, what type of shoes that they wanted to buy..he doesnt even know tahap mana pencapaian kak N,apa yang Kak N nak dan tak nak.Semua tu ada pada saya..i hope if anything does happen to me she will always remember the things that i did to her.
Apa yang pasti i doesnt know pada siapa saya nak mengadu..setiap kali lepas sembahyang tak putus saya berdoa that he will be back to me again cause i miss him terribly.I missed all the moments..i missed the way he kissed me,i missed the way he treat me..i miss him..silap saya sebab i love him so badly...dalam diri ni ada dia sampai bebila.Kalau ditakdirkan tuhan mencabut nyawa saya ketika ini...i want him to know i love him so much....
1 comment:
kasih sayang dan ingatan mungkin akan berubah seiring masa. sekarang mungkin sab sayang dia sebagai suami tapi lama2 nanti sab sayang dia macam kawan atau saudara.
:)
beb, u can always sms, email and fb or twit me kalau sab ada apa2 nak ngadu. tak elok simpan sorang2. nanti terpendam lama2 kesian kat awak tanggung semua sendiri. kalau kongsi sini sket, sana sket tanggungan tu lama2 akan kurang.
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