K back to real life after a week spent at home and money spend kat shopping complex..hahaha..talking about Raya yupe raya tak semeriah dulu. Setiap kali ada yang bertanya about him or mum talking about him air mata pasti meleleh.Me? emmm i guess am stronger each day i hope it will maintain that way.Paling mudah tersentuh is mum cause she trust him more than her own child,loves him more than her own child..yupe itu semua setuju.Thts y when he did this to our family mum is the one yaang sedih.Ayah..he's been ok so far tapi tak tahulah kalau dia diam tu ada yang dipendamkan.Maybe he doesnt wanna see me weak thts y kot.
Not only him that make mum and dad sad..even my SIL pun sama.She did not even have the time to even visit mum and dad ..not even a single call to both of them.Adam and Nia yang selama ini menjadi pengubat rindu tapi tak dapat jumpa for the whole week.Kesian ai tgk diaorg.Yupe me n sis dah berbakul bakul meluah perasaan memasing.Argh!!! even semalam mak sepatutnya stay at Melawati pun angkat kaki and keluar dari rumah tu and do not mind at all to be at sis room yang kecik tu..i hope my application to KL granted ASAP..bukan apa kesian to my sis and my parents jugak.
So overall this raya adalah raya yang tak meriah langsung for our family.So to divert all the feelings entah berapa kali dok keluar and shop shop..thts y luit talak wooooo..chissss...
Anyway dalam pada bersedih i manage to beraya most of rumah makcik makcik yang dulu memang tak ada masa lah kan, i manage to be in JB makan makan lepak lepak in which i miss to do so sbb sebelum kahwin pantang ada gathering pasti i'll be there tapi lepas kawin hmmmm.. so now dah single harus joli sakan..hahaha...dulu each time raya sure i dont have the time to be with mum or sis shopping but now i do have plenty of time with them.Hey its damnnnnnn best bila shop at KLCC with my 2 muchkins and my sis.Ok next year am gonna make sure shop till drop pastu lepaking with 2 muchkins..ooohhh i missed them.Kelakar k tengok diaorg jalan heret heret selipar sebab puasa and letih..hahahha...
Kadang kadang terfikir dalam diri ni..mungkin dalam kesedihan Allah kurniakan ai sesuatu yang tak pernah ai rasa..segalanya ada hikmah.And sekuat mana rindu ai pada dia ai know that i need to face semua ni...biarlah apa yang dia katakan,biarlah apa jua org yang akan berkata,biarlah apa yang akan orang fikirkan sebab yang tahu hanya Allah..dan yang tahu apa dalam -hati ini juga hanya Allah..
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